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Name: annie
Country: Barbados
Birthday: 1/29/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: swim, looking through wedding magazines, daydream, sleep, and dancing like an old person..
Expertise: being mean...and being nice at the SAME TIME!
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Nonprofit
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Member Since:
3/4/2003
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| it is june gloom people!
well, i guess it wouldn't really matter to me considering that I am in an office the whole afternoon. I will only know what the weather is like if I go out to lunch, or someone from the outside world informs me.
speaking of lunch, i went to marie's callendar to pick up a whole pie of delicious key lime. i should really learn to stop though because I don't want to get sick of this delicious treat. I really don't like any dessert, but for some reason key lime has my heart...for now.
in other news, married life is pretty great. but i really wouldn't know how to describe the "greatness" of it. if anything, it is very awkward to answer the question, "how's married life?" to other people. I usually just say, "it's fun!," and that ends the conversation. jason and i concluded that people who ask us how's married life on a weekly basis really knows nothing about us. we came up with that because we give the same answer every week and there is no depth in those conversations. i mean, imagine someone going up to you every week asking, "so how's the car you're driving?"
i mean that is a pretty poor illustration, but nonetheless, i hope the message got through. It's understandable to have it asked every once in a while or just even once, but to have it asked like its the first time being asked all the time. wow. however, i think i'm just harsh.
a couple of different dychotomies that i faced with being with jason is that he is good at socializing and networking. I, on the other hand, find it bland and even boring. Not to be mean or anything, it's just that I enjoy my handful of friends so much that i don't have any motivation or need to gain new ones. I keep telling Jason that i'm anti-social. He laughs, but knows that I am serious. Don't get me wrong, I will say hi and have a nice small chat, but I wouldn't call you my friend or insist on giving my information. I just have a hard time having more than five friends, because when I invest, I give a lot of my energy.
Another thing that I realized is that Jason enjoys going out a lot more than me. I call it laziness, but my wonderful husband calls it homebody. He loves me so much that he'll make it into an optimistic outlook. =) But it's so true. I love home, and I think that that's a pretty new thing for me. Before, I'd go out and come home whenever I pleased, but now, I just want to stay home all day cuddled up in a blanket and taking as many cat-naps!
However, although jason and i have our differences, he teaches me to be out of myself. I'm pretty sure, if not for certain, that i do the same for him. It's not a bad thing though because it really keeps me grounded. I love that jason and i are not the same because i think i would die if i had someone like me. who would i learn from? who would challenge me?
well, i don't know how this blog turned out to be about my very early new-born newly wed life, but it turned out to be that way. now, i must wait for an hour and thirty minutes for my work to end. summer hours are nice, but sometimes too quiet.
you know it's slow at my work when i'm writing a blog...
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| Today I made a Spamwich! Yup that's right, a good ol' spam sandwich, only this time I used Hot & Spicy Spam. I had egg and cheese on top and it worked like a charm! I decided to eat outside at the library patio so that I could enjoy the sunlight. It was super warm and I liked it! Most of the reason why I love warm, and maybe even musky, humid weather is because I'm in an office that loves being a refrigerator. Plus, I just love being a warm-blooded creature.
Anyways, after eating my spamwich, an apple and drinking half of my water bottle, i decided to take a nap on my plastic chair. what a great idea! so i slouched on my chair, rested my neck and let my head peak dangle out without any real support.
i closed my eyes and i knocked out. i woke up thirty minutes later realizing 1) my mouth was wide open which made my throat parched and dry, 2) my vision was giving me green flashing fireworks, 3) my head was getting dizzy and 4) my body was accumulating a nice damp God-given sweat. so here i am, once smelling like my pomegranate mango body wash to baked korean skin. I'm pretty sure I looked ridiculous and disoriented, but good thing I was in a corner where the whole library could've seen me.
Now, I'm back in the refrigerator trying to regain all the energy that was zapped away from me during lunch. So far, I've gained back my sight and my throat, but I still smell like baked skin...
If anything, this taught me a good lesson....
don't be stupid by sleeping outside in 100 degree weather.
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| i am so excited.
for what reason exactly?
today for lunch i will be heading out to all-you-can-eat sushi joe's sushi in la habra with my wonderful cousin judes!
i woke up and arrived early as a bird to work and realized that i didn't pack lunch. for some reason, when i wake up in the morning i try convincing myself to not pack lunch because i should be fine to skip a meal. of course i remember that 3 out 5 times, i will choose the extra ten minutes of sleep rather then getting up to make a sandwich.
my own mind manipulates me to believe that i can be without food and the feeling of hunger for eight hours. how gullible am i?
in other great news....
TGIF
fridays really are a blessing because everyone is a little bit happier knowing that the weekends are coming =) | | |
| i arrived at work at 8:00 this morning thinking that I would be busy to the bone. what ended up happening?
it turns out that after doing my own work, helping someone else's work, finding work and finishing work, thinking about what else to do at work, there is a high possibility of being totally still twiddling thumbs and unsure of what to do next.
This is why i am here. i am here in xanga after a couple of years because i've been twiddling thumbs. i've facebooked myself out, sent a couple of videos to sunday school kids, myspaced out, read surveys, pictures, stalked for a while on myspace and ended up here. it took me a while to write in xanga because i was busy looking through everyone on my xanga list to see what their last post was. out of the 20-some people, i've found out that only 2 people keep up with their xangas. amazing. to you i would like to give an applause...you stuck it through!
updates about life is that i'm done with school and working at the same place i graduated. i thought i wanted to be a teacher, then started to realized that maybe i don't really want to teach. it's either that or i'm too scared to face high school students. nonetheless, it led me here as a receptionist in the accounting department at Biola University. today we had a little party with punch and cookies.
apparently im not in my healthy physique and i love junk food. two factors you don't want when it comes to getting older. also, i sit for about 7.5 hours a day to add to the challenge. my goal is to work out...one day and i should. speaking of that, i felt guilty for not being in some type of good healthy exercise because dr. dobson from focus on the family was discussing it today on kkla. talk about God wanting me to be physically healthy.
in other and exciting news, i recently got married. it's been about three weeks and i've been loving it! being a newlywed and a low income family is nice. actually i was talking to jason the other day and i told him that it doesn't feel like we're a low income family. if anything, i'd say we live pretty comfortably. we have an apartment, food in the fridge and entertainment at home. how can one complain? i guess it's ok since we don't have too many expenses in our lives. it just really shows that in america, despite all the changes and crisis its going through, you can still survive even with a humble income. BUT then again, it'd be nice to have a higher income, but for now, jesus is teaching us that he is still our provider despite our circumstances or economy.
in other news, i'm sipping on my punch and counting down the time. its 3:39, but it feels like it's been stuck there for a very very long time. one more hour and i'll be home with jason, eating curry, doing sunday school, cleaning the house, and watching a dvd series called heroes.
i'll probably blog about heroes some day...but lost will always have my heart.
hi xanga!
it's so good to be back. | | |
| i guess i'm starting over with xanga.
i realized that there's a lot of rebuilding i need to do in my life.
it's definitely a frustrating process because the process constantly reveals the ugly side of my character and the flaws that burdens me at times. it's sometimes extremely discouraging.
sometimes i try to ask God to simply take away my imperfections and to speed up the trials in my life, but i know he's showing me something he wants me to overcome and conquer. i know that this "rebuilding" will take a significant amount of time and effort.
oh, my jesus is showing the weaknesses in my life to make me realize that i cannot live this life on my own accord. talk about eating a HUGE piece of humble pie with a round-house kick to the face...
i feel alone. i really do.
and even though i know this surely will come to pass with people to comfort me and so on, it is still a lonely path to tread on.
what AM i ranting about?
i don't know WHAT it is, but what it is...it's overwhelming.
maybe i'm just paranoid.
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